In order to understand where I’m coming from, you need to hear a story from the Bible that breaks my heart.
It’s the story of the rich man in Mark 10. He was so excited to see Jesus that he ran up to Him and fell down at His feet.
“Good Teacher,” the rich man said, “What can I do to inherit eternal life?” He went on to explain to Jesus how he had kept the 10 commandments and lived a righteous life.
But the Lord knew what was in this man’s heart, and that he loved his possessions and material wealth much more than he loved God.
Looking at the man, Jesus felt genuine love for him. “There is still one thing you haven’t done,” he told him. “Go and sell all your possessions and give the money to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” v. 21
This man, who had so much potential to serve the Lord, went away sad.
At this the man’s face fell, and he went away sad, for he had many possessions. v.22
I identify with this guy on so many levels. I get excited about serving God and about eternal life, and I share my resume of past achievements with Him. But when the Lord pin points the something I love dearly, and convicts my heart, I too, go away sad. Instead of relenting to the precious conviction of the Holy Spirit, I harden my heart.
I’m so sick of that.
I’m sick of wondering “what life would be like” if I lived in complete submission to Him.
I’m sick of dreaming about doing more for Christ.
I’m sick of wishing that I’ll “feel more spiritual” tomorrow.
I’m sick of seeking out self-glory.
I’m sick of hoping people will hear the Gospel some day.
I’m sick of living under the weight of conviction.
I’m sick of not saying, “Yes, Lord.”
The poor rich man. I wonder if he ever came around and realized the life he was missing out on? In His mercy, the Lord has gently taught me that life is joy-FILLED when we say, “Yes, Lord” and follow Him, no matter what He calls us to do. Unlike the rich man, we can walk away glad.
So, that’s what this blog is all about…
My name is Ashley Dill and I’m a wife, mom, and follower of Christ. I’m not good at DIY projects, creating new recipes, organizing, or keeping a clean house. There are cabinets I’m ashamed of, dust on my baseboards, and wedding picture frames I still haven’t filled. You won’t find much “home inspiration” around here! But, I like to read, think hard, go outside, and play with my son. Simple stuff.
I’m learning how to navigate this crazy life with the Lord Jesus Christ by my side. In our ever-changing-culture, He is my truth and my hope. When I forget who I am, He reminds me. When I stray away, He brings me back to Himself. When I think the world owes me, He humbles me. We have a relationship like that. It’s pretty cool.